Fooled or Favoured!!!

Why would anyone want to go to work after a fun filled non stop action packed vacation.Well with just a couple of hours sleep of rest, i forced myself to get out of bed. I stepped out , the morning mist was breaking through my skin,as i was warming up with my sweater and gloves, i caught an  insight of lady who was walking towards me. She was in her mid or late forties, covered herself in a blue and sari and blue bag, her eyes pale  seeking for help, her face filled with white patches. She came towards me and said that someone stole her purse and she had to reach her relatives place and was asking me to lend her some money, i gathered that her destination was  outside Bangalore and that she needed 126Rs to reach there.
Lots of thoughts were Hovering me as to what  if she was going to take out a knife and ask for valuables..But there was some strange feeling that occured within me, something inside me told me that i need to help her,  so i took out my wallet and opened my change outlet and found some couple of ten Rupee notes which summed upto 60/70 rs and handed over to her. she thanked me for it and said that she wished to return it and asked for my address, i said thats not needed and hurried upto work. AS i passed by her i took a last glance at her in my vehicle`s rear view mirror, she had the money in her hand and was looking at it. Well even if she lied i am happy that i gave the lady something to fill her stomach for the day. Well i beleive in  “What Goes around comes Around”.
Now as i am writing lots of questions are clouding over… Was she really in Help? Was i being fooled? Was she mentally unstable? what was that about just 126 Rs for the Bus fare , Didnt she need any money for food? What was her motive to ask my address to return the money? why didnt  she keep the money in her bag after she took it?

Wanderer

I woke up towards the light of the morning sun peeping through the sun in the park where I rested at night. Walking towards the joggers park with my head avoiding everyone`s stare. I looked like a piece of dirt to those high class loosers who was always interested in failing everyone else. My head was dizzy as I don’t remember the last time I had food, trying to sing, to calm my butterflies in the stomach. As I could no longer walk I sat in a corner thinking where I started off and how I landed here but all I could remember is wandering from place to place. Here passes by another day, another night struggling to cover myself with the cold wind piercing through my punctured clothes. I woke up to feel some tickling at my feet, found that a little puppy licking my feet. Wanted to chase it away but felt that it had no one too.. And here it comes like my shadow everywhere I move…

Here I Stand

Through the darkest desires of being on the top.

Through the deepest thoughts being it as flop,

Here i stand in the midway

For some light thrown on  my thorny way,

Here i stand frozen with bundles of worries,

struggling out of the tangled woes,

Here i Stand to be free, and fly like a bird.

Debuprience

Ting Tong….Ting Tong……The Door bell barks(though the ring is not so bad but felt likewise).I woked up horrified(why? dont know but with a pensive feeling for sure),the reason heart was wrenching with the feeling something not being right with some dear ones(to have a strong sixth sense sucks). In a flash resurrected the list of those and then trying hard to be casual, used grahambells innovation to find out their well being. Everything seems fine with them but still my heart is sinking why? like a 6 year old who finds plethora reason to avoid school, I was avoiding the why. Honestly it wasnot helping much. After some brownian roaming coupled with half a pack ciggratte I decided to face it. I have not called up the one whom I should have.

Whom should I call ?(need for bit of flashback)

FIT Vs MISFIT ? Its all about Choice

Its been quite sometime infact close to ages I have written something.May be wasnot in mood or was just too lethargic ,anyways matter of fact its not the topic of post.

Its about the system we are in(You, Me and every single individual around)

As far I have analyzed most of us are in a system which were made by someone and rules laid down which is beyond our level of understanding but many of us are happily adjusting, compromising with the system which might not be for them.Funnily we have all the logic justifying us being fit enough(infact Misfit) to this system rather than actually exploring avenues where our actual place is.

Then there are very few who are smart enuf to judge their system or create one and happily playing in their arena least bothered about the rest.

Just when you thought its done I bring forward to you another group who are in a system they know, not made for them but cann’t help it since they are not able to find a system which is tailormade for them.The result they are always a misfit and most around are not able to find the reson to it and so is the individual(Nah he/she knows it to core).These individuals always has reasons to find flaws in the system (nothing wrong) But whats the use unless there’s no effort towards it’s rectification.On the process of all this they grow frustrated ,low on morale,indifference to everything……..(you know the rest if you are part of it) else be happy where you are. One of major reason behind these individuals is they are smart enuf to analyze but are not gutsy enuf to take the bold step towards the right direction(deep down they are weak).

These are my feelings may be correct,may not be(For rest of you, there’s a comment section)